Thursday, June 28, 2012

omg...

My life is kinda static... i am actually looking for postgraduate program that i believe will enrich and nurture my now-static-life... there's a lot of questions need to be answered before enrolling myself to the right program.. mind you, until today i still don't know what field is suitable to me... i am into mathematics but i don't have the right qualification to enable me to be accepted to that field.. let me just think again.... :(

Wednesday, October 13, 2010

Learning

Dear loyal readers,

.. fuhhhhh..its been a while since my last entry.. life has been so chaotic for me.. uncertainties are everywhere and i am so tired of handling them.. which most of the time they came unexpectedly that triggered unpleasant and awkward situations between parties involved... it was so tensed to the extent that i couldn't figure out what is right and what is wrong.. irrational actions are waiting to be called..

i just don't understand why some people are so stubborn and so emotional in handling things... aren't they aware that all thats happenned are by miles are because of their own mistake??? They kept on saying that "..omg..i am still young and still learning.."..bullshit... how on earth you called that learning when you are actually aware that you've made mistake but keep on repeating the same mistake... are you waiting for the outcomes to emerge and ruined everything then you stop doing your mistake??? when that time comes, regrets are useless... face the facts... don't we have enough evidence (that we learned from others experiences..or by observations..or even from the Pendidikan Moral or Sivik we learned from school) to opened your eyes???? Why do you think we have norms and moral studies in our society???

So stop taking advantage on number (age) and how young you are that permits you to repeat your mistake.. there are few mistakes that are not meant to be repeated over and over again, because the result is calamity and has great impact on your future... to make things even worse, it also jeopardizing others future and of course the impact will be spread-out to your significants...

Just don't let your emotions control your actions.. let your mind and thinking be dominant in your action.. don't be so ego.. don't said that you are trying to help out..YOU ARE NOT... You are pampering your own lust and desire only... If you want to ruin your future then be my guest, just don't involve others..

I know i sounded like i hate you but believe me i don't.. and i really meant it.. I don't hate you.. i just want you to understand how i care about FUTURE and i dont want it to be ruined just by ONE single action that only satisfied the feelings of youthfullness... There are few things in our life that need us to experience them in order for us to learn, but there are also things that we learned from others and we should avoid the same mistake that had affected their future.. the thing that you are doing now is of course the latter... please... from my humble heart, stop doing it cuz it hurting yourself.. there are time for everything.. for that particular thing, it is not the right time yet...

i know somehow i am to be blamed for whatever outcomes that might occur... i am human being too.. i made mistake and still making them.. but for this particular thing, i know i am right... trust me... i started to giving up being like a patrol guy or policeman that 24/7 making sure everything is fine.. i am tired being lied... if i were to forget everything, someone will for sure in limbo and i don't want it to happen... because watever i have started, i will make sure that i'll finished them... i care for you..

Saturday, June 12, 2010

Thank you....

Dear you...
In my life, i have so many choices.. but few yrs back i've made choices that changed my entire life thereafter... i chose to care 4 u, i chose to hold u when u r down, i chose to look after ur well being, i chose to carry you when u r sick, i chose to be around u anytime anywhere, i chose to be ur shoulder to cry on, i chose to get u up when u fall, i chose to be next to u when u r alone and the entire world is rejecting u, and most importantly...i chose to syg u with all my heart and strength and next thing i know, i have been dedicating my life to u...

you,
Thank you for letting me messing ard ur life for several years... thank you for giving me the opportunity to love n be loved... thank you for the great memories.. ill treasure them... thank you for allowing me to be part of ur life over the years, in which i learned a lot abt life n myself...

you,
you know how i feel abt all these and it will never change although u ask me to do sumting that completely contrary to what and how i feel abt you... but i respect ur decision and its what u've been asking for quite a long time ago... the time has come tho.... i guess i just need to move on... and do what u ask me to do...

you,
from the bottom of my sincere and humble heart, i would like to ask for ur 4giveness for everything... i know i have sin against u and i can't do anything to change it.. i'm sorry... as i always said to u, u r owez right... u r nor to be blame for everything that had happened... it just me that should be blamed... i was completely an idiot and stubborn and being so selfish without thinking on wat u want in ur life... i was so ignorant of your feelings and emotions... all i ever thought is just ME n Myself... i should be awarded with 'the most selfish and stubborn people in planet' award... i am so guilty to u n your life.... i ask ur 4giveness once again....

You,
i promise from this moment on, i will never messing ard you n your life anymore... i will never allow myself to tell u to do this, do that n acting like i owned u... i owe u ur freedom... again, 4give me... T.T

You,
i will never regret the choices made by me... it was the right choices made by me bcuz it had gives way for 'the greatest thing ever-happened in my life" to happen... yes, the greatest thing ever happened to me is 'YOU"....

its ur time to do ur choices and i sincerely understand and accept your choices with an open heart...

You,
thank you so much....n take care now...

Sorry for everything.... my bad... T.T

Sunday, April 4, 2010

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